It just feels so weird not to write something, in a hurry, before i booked back into camp and hence my appearance over here on a Thursday night, 30 minutes before i report back to camp for SAF DAY (1st July) after a 6 day hiatus. Today i have decided to just pen a short write-up pertaining to a theme, rather than just mere ramblings about daily stuffs unlike previous posts.
So how do you react when you see someone you think is familiar (key word being think)?
I just happen to have this recurring experience few hours back, when i saw my senior brushed past me at Westmall Popular, and its just intuitive that I pretended not to notice him and walked past as natural as possible, before casting a look back to confirm whether if the target identified is indeed someone you know. Upon taking a second look, and confirming that he is indeed my senior, i have decided not to acknowledge him and just continue to talk to my sisters. And this is just one the many incidents that i have experienced over the past few months as its quite common for one to meet friends you haven't met for long on the streets, and interestingly, i didn't take the initiative to strike a custom conversation with them as well, and decided to take the easy way out instead.
In retrospect, I have decided to reflect on my knee-jerk reaction and question whether upon rational analysis have i made the right move. I wondered, "is it normal to just walk away, since the situation will turn really weird when we start cracking our brains for pretentious courteous remark like "hi, eh why are you here?", and tried to dish out some conversation-ending phrase like "erm i gotta go now" or others like "hope to see you around soon and all the best", causing the whole situation to be really tense and weird. " Perhaps this also indicates that the relationship between two of you may in fact be one that is just perfunctory and not one that is built upon strong ties and camaraderie. And in fact, apart from the handful of close friends that you can really call bros and mates, the rest are just based on superficial grounds like perhaps CCA mates, classmates, camp mates, whom we are forced to acknowledge for we do share something in common, and its a bit preposterous for us to ignore and label them as strangers.
Even up to now, i can never conclude whether there is a right thing or wrong thing to do... and thinking about it, maybe i should try to take the lead and open up a conversation with someone that i genuinely want to know more, especially for this particular senior whom i was quite connected to back then...
What do you normally do then?