Alright, yet another week has passed and i am just half an hour away from booking in. I have been fretting over what to write for today post and decided just to type as it goes, after all thats what essentially means by letting ideas flow naturally and intuitively.
Ok, i am honestly out of ideas and have decided to pen my recent thoughts regarding, stucking in the shit hole. The past few days have been peppered with epiphany moments for me... Starting from the late night supper+pool chill out session with Eric to late dota game at 1 with ppnldd and his brothers and lastly epitomized by the Champions League Finals when my favorite Reds were beaten hands down to the formidable FC Barcelona, I struck me that once you got yourself ensnared in a shit hole, its really hard to regain back your footing and be rational again to push against the tide. In other words, its really a one way fall phenomenon, when what it requires is just a small tipping point, and everything just seems to go against your way and you feel helpless, obliterated and defeated.
You just cant seem to find the reason to explain such predicament and you grow increasingly paranoid of your situation - feeling that there is nothing you can do to turn the tables unless you can find the cardinal key, which you have essentially no idea what is the exact secret formula, and where you can find it. Pundits envisaged that Manchester Army will fall under the hands of Lionel Messi, for they have yet to crack the mystery of the Messi Factor, roaming mercilessly in the fields like what he did to beset Manchester's quest for title 2 years back, and it did happen last night. Manchester were just gobsmacked by the flow of the football presented right in their eyes, and at the end of the game, they can only concede a righteous defeat by a much superior opponent.
In many circumstances, it may just seems like a overpowering flow of force rushing against you, sweeping you off your feet and making you feel powerless. But in reality, it may just take one simple change, a subtly right one, to change the tide and make it to your advantage. The problem is its hard to find the right key, the tipping point in favour of you, to solve the beguiling mystery puzzle especially when you are in a state of disarray; making you lose your logical and rational mind to think even of a solution, albeit a defining one, to change the whole game.
Really wish to head out of local shores and see the world out there. Life is board, and i need a change; a much-needed one.