I understand what it means by getting irrational when one becomes angsty, just after experiencing a short, yet edifying incident minutes ago.. ( i know its not the most appropriate to write a post about this, especially when i just come back from a 3 week hiatus and should be reflecting about the whole Ex. Wallaby, but yea, its still a lesson worth documenting)
Its yet another scorching hot day, and here i am, stuck in front of my laptop, and fretting over this really screwed up wireless connection that just wouldn't load my pages nor start buffering my YouTube videos. The weather, coupled with my over-grown hair and persistent headache, further accentuates my irritant mood that makes any attempts to debug this problem futile. My dad, seeing how my pissed self lying defeated on the bed, then advised me to call the singtel mio hotline for help, and i just shrugged him off by lamenting that those Indian hotliners are of no help, and they just follow their standard protocol (just like any typical large organisation....) and give step-by-step advice that makes you feel as if you are progressing well, but any tech geek will know that the restart-and-try-again methods of helping are just mere superficial channels that will offer no solution at the end. Hence, more of often than not, i rather be stuck in the shit hole then wasting my time consulting those 'experts' behind the phone lines.
And after 5 mins of conversing with the Indian guy, quite reluctantly though, he cracked the problem in a succinct manner after asking me to alter my TCP/IP properties, which i have no idea what it is for. But a matter of fact, I was wrong with my decision to ignore my dad's offer at first, and i realised that many a times, i became agitated and start making irrational decisions in times when i get on my nerves. This is especially so when i am mired in a heated argument, and i can go on blabbering non-stop, like a GPMG on rapid fire, though in a illogical manner i realised after the words get out of my mouth, so that i can reinstate my stand as the dominant speaker.
For this, I ought to reflect and calm my nerves down so that my conscious thinking can take the better of the angst boiling within me. I have no idea why i am getting vexed and stressed, more frequently, and i just find that my life still lacks of something, that makes it complete. I desperately need a much-needed run.