How i wish i can start of this post with a simple header, Dear Diary, and then continue to blabber on with my deluge of emotions and reflections that stemmed directly from the bottom of my heart, without fearing that such heartfelt and sincere writings will be exposed to the eyes of any individual out there. That's perhaps what truly defines diary writing- a habit that allows you to thrash out everything that has been clogging up your chain of thoughts and allows you to purge out all negative sentiments that have been bottling in you for long. But yet when i choose to shelve aside a real diary for a virtual blog space, I realised that what i wrote here may perhaps just be a stupendously much-filtered version of what i really want to say and what that genuinely boggles me for the past few weeks. I can't possibly write about sensitive topics like love and relationships, and start confessing all my possible crushes during the school days that may startle the world. And neither could I bitch about sensitive army topics such as the unfair treatment we received and how i actually despise people who signed on for the SAF, for i know that putting up these here on a public space will risk myself getting charged and who knows i maybe on the headlines of The Straits Times the next day, for being too frank with my blabbering.

Sometimes, i really wonder if its a wise choice to ditch a proper diary for this blog space, that i haven't been really feeding with things that i really wanted to say. I have read some of my previous diary entries which spanned over the past few years, all written in random notebooks, and realised that those are really genuine texts that i have written, and it really feels like getting a huge saddle off my back after i finished thinking and penning down literally. Ranging from personal relationships to reviewing my resolutions and directions for the year when i reached the nadir point of my life, such sensitive topics can be written at ease and most essentially, without a need to complicate the process of reflection by implementing own filters and redtapes to present the most appropriate content for the watchful eyes of the readers.

I know that this post in summary is just another post about some random topics that i have been thinking about, yet revealing nothing that has been revolving around my life. To those who are still visiting this place, what you got to know is that there are still a couple of unfinished, yet sensitive, businesses that have been troubling right now, but this year in retrospect, is still quite a refreshing experience and i am really contented with what i have now- family love, a wholesomely-planned university education and true friends. That's what really matters now, and for the others unaccomplished tasks, i can only continue dreaming and hope that the world will conspire to help my fulfil my dreams as long as i have the drive to pursue what i really want.